Cleverness is Escaping me at the Moment

So I feel the need to update the people who don't read this on what's been going on in my life.

I'm fairly certain that I got said job from previous post! They called me and told me that they were interested in me, and they told me they were going to check my references. Well one of my references emailed me and told me they had been contacted, and sure enough, a few days ago I received an email from my potential future place of employment that contained the release form so they can run my background check! And as long as that goes through well (like it wouldn't) then I get hired! YAY!

In other news, Christmas this year was very different in the Dozier house. We didn't do presents this year. And when I say we didn't do presents, I mean it. Nothing at all. Which was good on the nerves, rather than stressing about shopping and money. But it was bittersweet all the same. This was my last Christmas at home, un-married, and as a Dozier. But I'm sure next year will be fun. It'll certainly be different!

It still hasn't hit me that I'm done with college. I have, however, been experiencing nightmares that involve, but are not limited to:

• Me having to go back to elementary school because I didn't complete something, and they won't let me graduate college til I do. No one will talk to me, or sit next to me at lunch, and the teacher won't let me go to my car.

• I miss exams, and it's in a really dumb class, and it keeps me there another semester, and keeps me from graduating.

• It's move out day in the dorms, and I haven't packed a single thing, I can't find my roommate to help me, people are moving into my room that same day, and they start moving in on top of my unpacked things, and i wind up losing most of my things.

But at least my dreams are interesting.

Other than that, not much has been going on. I've rediscovered my love for reading, and I've been devouring books like it's going out of style. I stayed up til 3am the other day just to finish one of the books! Crazy, I know, lol.

I hope everyone had a marvelous Christmas, and I hope ya'll have a very happy New Year :)

I Finally Did it!

I finally did it. I graduated from college and earned my degree! I now have a B.S. in Agribusiness. I don't feel any smarter, but I do feel like I've accomplished something. I've worked so hard these past 4 1/2 years to get this degree. And I never thought I'd survive my 21 hour semester, but I did.

I have to say, I'm pretty proud of myself. Will I miss college? Yes and no. I'll miss some of my friends and professors, but I most certainly will not miss classes, exams, finals, papers, and projects.

It's funny how much different my life is now, than I ever imagined it would be at this point. I'm very please with where I am and the way things are going. God has been so good to me, and it's totally his fault that I'm where I am. :)

My friends and family have done so much to love me and support me through this hectic academic journey. No, I didn't graduate with honors, but I graduated. That's what counts. So what if I didn't have cords and sashes hanging around my neck. I have my degree, and there isn't anything that can change that. I worked my tail end off, and it shows. God is so good!

I also may ave a job soon. I went for an interview on Thursday, and it went pretty well. I just hope that I get this job. It would be a huge blessing, and it's something that I really need right now. But I know that if I don't get it, God has something bigger and better for me in store. Just please be in prayer about this. I know it's down between myself and someone with a masters. But I'm thinking that the person with a masters is looking for a temporary job until something better comes along, and I'm looking for a permanent job. So we'll see how it pans out.

Now the only major thing I need to do is get a move on this wedding planning. It shouldn't be that bad, and I'm pretty sure that it won't be near as stressful as 21 hours of classes were, lol.

Thank you to everyone who has helped me make it this far. I love ya'll and I'm so thankful for you :)

To Hope, or Not to Hope...this is the question

So i've been really stressed lately about finding a job after graduation. Well, I mentioned that as a prayer request in Sunday School this morning, and my Sunday School teacher told me to talk with him after class.

Well it turns out, where he works is looking for people...and he can get me an interview within a week of giving him my resume! No joke! He said he couldn't guarantee me a job, but an interview is a step in the right direction!

I'm not going to mention the job or what it is yet, but if I get it, you'll hear about it!

But lets just say that it starts out at the pay level I wanted.

Please be in prayer over this. This would be a wonderful job for me, and it's everything I've been looking for n a job, even though it isn't ag related.

God is good, and He hasn't let me down yet. And I know that if I don't get this job, then He has an even better one in store for me. But if it was up to me, I'd totally jump all over this one!

Wedding Bells

I'm so ready to be married. July seems so far away, but I know that it will come sooner than I think it will. My main worries is finding a job, and then us finding a house. But it will all come in time...and God hasn't let us down yet.

I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!

"I Just Want You to Know Who I Am."

I give up. I really do. I'm sick and tired of all of this stress, and feeling like no one cares. A little encouragement would go a LONG way right now, but I know better than to ask for it. If you have to ask for it, then it isn't genuine; it's just an inconvenience.

No, this isn't pointed to anyone. So stop reading into it. It's just how I feel right now.

It's times like this I wish I didn't have any friends so I had a legit reason to feel this way.

I just don't know what's going on anymore.

So what if I graduate. I don't have a job to go to. More than likely I'll wind up working retail the rest of my life and earning minimum wage. Go me.

I really don't see any point in graduating right now. All it's doing is making me miserable, and causing me to make everyone around me miserable as well.

Life sucks.

And it all comes crashing down upon my wee little head

So, everything is going kaput in my life right now. I shall share a list of all goings ons, and I want to make the disclaimer that I'm not complaining, I'm just merely hoping that getting these thoughts out will ease some stress...here we go!

• My brother Sam is very sick and not doing well. I'm terrified of losing him. He's the closest person I've ever had to a brother, in every sense of the word. I admire him more than he will ever know.
• Michael's uncle died yesterday. It was completely unexpected, and it breaks my heart to see him and his Granny as upset as they are, as well as the rest of the family.
• I have to get a shot in the arm Friday (I'm terrified of needles, especially when they are being shoved into my skin)
• 21 hours of classes are trying to kill me...I'm not even kidding
• My right eye has been twitching for over 8 hours. This cannot be a good thing
• Nightmares are keeping me from sleeping all the way through the night, and when I do sleep, it's not restful
• I tried on my wedding dress this past weekend, and I've gotta lose some weight so I'll be able to breathe in it. This means a...gulp...diet.
• One of my best friends is having a tough time and hurts so badly, and I have no idea how to help her. I'm really worried about her, and I love her so much.
• I hardly get to see Michael, and with what's going on with his uncle, I feel terrible about not being able to be with him like I should be. But I can only do so many things at once, and can only be in one place at a time. I'm a terrible fiancee.
• I can't remember what my class schedule is day to day, and I frequently forget what day it is.
• 21 hours wasn't the best idea.

And that's all I've got right now. Praying would be a good thing to do for me right now. Overwhelmed is an underrated word for how I'm doing right now.

But on the plus side, I'm getting an MTSU Dairy Products Judging Team National Champions 2007 jacket, and it's paid for! WOOT!

Writers Block

I have it. Especially when it comes to blogging. I read other people's blogs, and I think, "Hey! That's a great blog. I am now inspired to go blog! La la la, here I go to blog!" And BAM! I get here, and I got nothin'. I hate this. I don't haven anything witty to say, nor anything profound. All I do is write about how I can't write. This is so lame.

WOW a lot has happened!

So let's see if I can remember what all has happened recently!

First off, Michael reproposed to me, and gave me my official engagement ring! It's SOOO beautiful! The center stone is a blue topaz, and it has 10 diamonds on it! I'll have to post a pic of it on here soon!

The way he did it was SOO sweet! He got our entire wedding party together as a suprise, and we had a cook out, we danced to one of my favorite Jewel songs, and then he proposed! It was so awesome! My ring...wow, I just can't get over how beautiful it is! And it's HUGE!! After he proposed, he sang a song that he wrote me. It was so sweet and amazing! What a great way to celebrate our 2 year anniversary!

Next on the agenda, I just got back from Las Vegas early Wednesday morning. I went there with the MTSU Dairy Products Judging Team to compete in the National Contest. And we totally won! We took home more awards than any other school that was there! It was so awesome! I was only an alternate, and my scores didn't count, but it was exciting nonetheless!

Experiencing Vegas was kind of a different story. I don't really get into the whole going out and partying thing, so I was out of my element. But its ok. We got to see the Hoover Dam, which was crazy big! I also won $51 on the nickel slots! Lol, I'm pretty sure I won more than I spent in terms of gambling. To me, slots just start to get boring after a while, and I didn't find them the least bit addictive. But I'm ok with that. I also got to see some of the really neat casinos. We stayed at the Sahara, which wasn't all that great, but it beat some of the sketchy motels!

And Vegas smelled bad. It was a combo of cigarette smoke, booze, old people, and bathrooms. Gross. But the mountains were gorgeous! And I had a decent view out of my hotel room. When I finally got back to Tennessee the air here actually smelled sweet to me. It was so nice to get away from all of the smoke. My lungs couldn't have taken much more, and I was starting to wheeze pretty good when I got back. But I'm slowly getting better now. Only thing left to straighten out is getting this jet lag thing worked out.

Oh, we left for Vegas on Saturday, the 13th, which also happened to be my 23rd birthday. I'm old, I know. I guess it sounds cool having your birthday in Vegas, but it really wasn't all that great. I would have much rather been home with friends and family, but I'm very thankful that I had this experience and opportunity! But I'm not sure if I'll ever willingly go back to Vegas again. It's a very sad city.

Oh, and the prostitution there is crazy! They have those newspaper bins that are FULL of booklets with naked women on them with their lady-bits censored, and the phone numbers to call "for a good time." There would also be guys on the street corners with business card sized ads with the nude/censored women on them, and they'd flick the cards at you. Like I really want a hooker. Honestly guys. A little common sense!

I was sorely disappointed, though, because for my birthday, I wanted my picture taken with as many Elvis impersonators as I could find....yeah, didn't see a single one. So on the way to the Hoover Dam, I decided that I wanted my picture taken with a real tumbleweed. No such luck. We passed them on the side of the road, but there weren't any at the Dam. But it happens.

Goodness I'm glad to be home. Now I gotta get the smell of Vegas out of all of my clothes. Ew.

So there's the fun in a nutshell!

I Should Have Majored in Procrastination

So right now I should be working on my 1st draft of my project in my International Ag class. And I kinda am working on it, but I just plain don't want to do it. I'd much rather be doing more fun things...like, oh, I don't know...counting the pores on my face...cutting the grass with sewing scissors...someone else's homework! Yeah, i've got no motivation...boo. i want a nap

They're Dropping Like Flies

Our cars are, that is. Mom's car died yesterday, but luckily it was a slipped belt. My car decided it was oil intolerant, and threw it up under the car...but God was good again, and it was a faulty oil filter. Michael's car blew a head gasket, and well, is now in an eternal sleep. Plus, Michael's roommates car got sick, as well as Michael's dad's and brother's cars. This hasn't been a good month to be a car that knows me!

But we are all managing.

Other news to report...SCHOOL. That's all I ever do anymore. Fun? Not really, but i wanna and gotta get the heck outta here!

I'm excited about going home this weekend. I always like going back home :)

I've discovered I really don't like economics...at all. But I do admit that it is much better than straight up math...or Ag Engineering for that matter.

I kinda miss having a life outside of the academic institution...huh, you know, they call school an institution, which makes me think of things like "Institution for the Criminally Insane," or "Institution for dangerous criminals," or how about "Institution for the deranged?" You think that they could have chosen a more appropriate word...oh wait, they did. lol

Ok, so enough of my strange rants. I need to do more homework...or surf the internet (just kidding mom!)

Chocolate Dreams

I know that I should very well be in bed asleep at this moment in time, but I'm not.

Mom and I went shopping today, and we both got some phenomenal clothes, and deals on them too! I love my mom, and we have so much fun when we go out together.

I'm tired of 21 hours of classes, but I know I'll miss them when I graduate.

By the way, check out the new quotes I added to the right side of my page! I love it!

Failure is Fun

So I'm keeping this blog for a little while longer. I was playing with the other one, and it frustrated me too much. lol.

So, referring to the title of my post, why do we love to watch celebs fail? I finally found Britney Spear's VMA performance, which was an utter train wreck mixed with a volcanic eruption of embarrassment. In a way i feel a little sorry for her, but on the other hand i find it so very fascinating that someone would be brave/stupid enough to display themselves in public in the manner Spears does. And it doesn't even bother her! it's crazy.

Yeah, i'd like to write more about this, but i should REALLY get back to my homework.

just thought i'd spill some random thoughts! haha

why not jump on the band wagon

So I'm thinking of moving blogs again. it'll have all of my old posts, but i'll have more creativity options. let me know if you want the new webpage... but i may still update on here. who knows

"Dandelions Sunscorched"

Michael took me on an incredible date Thursday! We went on a dinner cruise on the General Jackson Showboat! He works there, but he got free captain's tables tickets. It was an amazing time! He bought us a bottle of wine, and it was really romantic! We don't go on extravagant dates very often, but this was fantastic!

In other, not so exciting and happy news, classes start Monday...all 21 hours of them.

Also, Michael's car broke down today, and it needs radiator work done. He took my car to work tonight, and we aren't sure what he's going to do about the rest of the week, since it needs to go to the shop, but it'll get worked out.

When it rains it pours...

Speaking of rain, it actually rained here last night! It wasn't near what we needed, but it was actual rain, and I'll take whatever I can get!

That's it for now. There is so much more going on, but for some reason I don't feel it should be divulged for the entirety of mankind to read on the internet.

Rain? What's that?

Oh my goodness we need rain! It has been obscenely dry here all summer long...and I'm really worried about the farmers and what they are going to feed their livestock this winter. I know that many of them have already been feeding hay most of the summer, and since we haven't had rain, the grass hasn't grown for more hay to be bailed. It's a really sad thing. Food prices are going to be outrageous this winter...especially corn.

I have officially brought my wedding dress home! I'm sooo excited! This is becoming more and more real everyday!

I have bad news in the school sector. I'm now having to take 21 hours this semester to graduate, thanks to my minor (mis)advisor. Not cool. But I am bound and determined to graduate this December!!!

School is starting in a few days, and i'm so stressed. I know it will be ok, it's just going to be difficult.

So much is going on, and everyone is so stressed. I'm ready for people who are insanely happy. I never thought i'd say that...

It's Like Groping in the Dark

There is 10 months and 28 days until my wedding...and even though I'm THRILLED, I'm really worried at the same time. The thing that worries me is how it's going to get paid for. I know that God will make provisions, and He knows what He's doing, but it's just hard to let go and let Him do what He does best. The unknown has a way of scaring the bajeebies outta me.

I just wish I could focus on the happiness of the whole thing, and enjoy it, rather than fret about it.

Have I mentioned how much I hate the hold money has on our lives?!

Sometimes You Feel Like a Nut...

Look! Another update! Haha. I went to campus today for a meeting I had for my Problems in Ag class. I think I'm going to enjoy this class. I will be on the Dairy Products Judging Team, and I'll learn how to judge milk, ice cream, yogurt, cheese, and cottage cheese. I'll also get to go to Chicago in Oct, and HOPEFULLY to Las Vegas too!!! All for free!! Excitement!

So we think we know what's wrong with the cat's butt, but trust me, it's gross, and it involves her having a bug inside of her that came out the hole. Ew.

Ok, so it wasn't much of an update, but it's better than nothing!

Oh, and I talked with my ag econ prof today since I saw him while I was on campus, and asked him whether he had changed his mind on calculators. The conversation went something like this:

Me: "So, have you decided to rethink the no calculator rule?"
Him: "Well, I'm still trying to see what else I can do to make my students' lives absolutely miserable. So I've decided for all of my tests, I'm now requiring my students to write the answers in their own blood."
Me: "So will this be finger blood, or blood from our jugular?"
Him: "I'll let you decide."

So I've now determined that I'm slightly disturbed because I haven't figured out how to read him...and I'm pretty decent at reading people...this shall be interesting.

Shame on Me

I really shouldn't wait this long to update...especially when such exciting things have been going on!

I got back last Sunday from the Mission Trip I went on with my church to Pennsylvania. It was INCREDIBLE! We did VBS for a church up there, and the children were SO eager to learn about God. It was a real blessing. And I also got to know some of my fellow church members much better. I'm thrilled to death that I have 2 new ACTUAL friends in my church!!! It has probably been since the 5th or 6th grade since I've had actual, real, and true friends at church! God is amazing!!! Goodness I love those two women to death!

Ok, onto other news. Michael and I have begun registering for wedding gifts! It is sooo much fun to go around the store and scan what you want! I know there is probably NO way we'll get everything, and that's totally cool, but it's still exciting!!!

Hmmm, what else. Oh, Ellie, my cat, is sick. She has a BIG hole on her buttcheek, and we don't know why. It isn't draining or bleeding, but we are keeping a CLOSE eye on it, and we are going to give it a few days to see if it gets better. If it doesn't, it's gonna be time to take her to the vet...ugh.

On a final note, I'm hopefully getting some relief here in 2 weeks. I have a problem with clenching my teeth in my sleep, and it's causing me to have problems when I chew gum, when I try to close my mouth when I yawn, and I've been having really bad headaches. My dentist is having me get a custom night guard made. I'm thrilled because I'm ready for a good night's sleep, and no more headaches!

Ok, so I lied, there is one more thing I want to address...school. I go back on the 27th of this month, and I'm not happy about it anymore. I'm taking 18 hours. 3 of my classes are in the area of marketing, and a new prof is teaching those...I got to meet him, and I'm fearing for my life in these classes now. He tries to come across as a big and bad economist...telling me he's a jerk and he isn't nice, and bull like that. That didn't bother me until he asked me if I was good in math. Yeah, I'll admit that I SUCK in math. The word "terrible" would be too good of a word for my mathematical abilities. I told him I'd be fine as long as I had a calculator...and that's when my life hit the fan...he told me that he doesn't allow calculators in his class...simply because he could fit the whole course on his palm pilot, and he doesn't want others doing that and bringing it to the tests. NOT OK. I told him all I needed was my little scientific calculator that you can't program anything into. Then he told me that it still wasn't allowed because people would still try to use their cell calc and text the answers, or use palm pilots and keep notes in it to use. I think he just wants to make life miserable for his own sick pleasure. But whatever. Pray about this.

Ok, now I'm done :)

P.S. I'm reading the new Harry Potter book, and if anyone spoils it for me, I will have some sort of vicious payback in store! ;)

"It's a Champagne Supernova"

I hate worrying. I also hate the control money has on all of our lives. This is something I've realized before, but it becomes increasingly apparent while doing my wedding planning. Several people have stepped up and are helping me find an inexperienced wedding photographer...so far I've found one for $200...and that covers everything! The problem...I haven't seen any of her work. I'm thinking that will be remedied soon though.

I've also met a very gracious and lovely wedding planner who is willing to help me at a beyond reasonable cost, which is just incredible.

I know everything will work out, and the key to getting through this and getting through this successfully is Jesus, and he's doing an amazing job. I've just gotta trust him.

If you have any suggestions, or wanna donate money, let me know! lol.

Let me brag on my fiance

Michael is so sweet :) Yesterday he took me on an excellent date! We went to Boundr'y in Nashville...and even though the food wasn't all that great, the time together was amazing! I also learned that I don't like rack of lamb...lol.

After a lovely dinner (and AMAZING dessert!) we ventured to Opry Mills and had a lovely time at Barnes and Noble. I heart that store!

We got back to his house, and he got online and ordered me the book I've been wanting really badly...Amy Vanderbilt's Complete Guide to Etiquette, the 50th anniversary edition!!! I can't wait til it gets here!

Ok, enough bragging for now, lol.

My cat likes walking on my keyboard

So yesterday was a happy day. It marked exactly one year from my wedding day! I can't wait! we got to go see his family, eat BBQ, and watch fireworks! Fun times were had.

I feel gross. I've been in bed all day, and I feel like death on a cracker.

Cleaning my room and my bathroom is high on my priority list, and as soon as I can move without wanting to die, I'll get to that.

So far I'm enjoying planning my wedding. I can't wait for the showers to start! Registering for things is going to be exciting as well! i'm trying my best to enjoy all of this wedding stuff, since I'm never going to go through it again. Like when I went dress shopping. I felt like a princess, and all eyes were on me. I normally am not one for the limelight, but I'll confess, I do enjoy it every once and a while.

Ok, I think I'll go try to take a shower now. Everyone likes a good smellin Dana!

Jewel, Shopping, and Friends

So a few weeks ago, my fiance took me to go see Jewel in concert in Nashville! It was incredible! She sang amazingly, she was nice, AND she played the song i requested! How cool is that?! That was indeed the BEST concert I've ever been to, and Michael was incredible for taking me!

Michael also took me shopping on Saturday! We went to TJ Maxx and looked at this AWESOME purse that was $20! It was gorgeous, leather and pink! He offered to buy it for me, but I declined. We then went to Target and found some GREAT cologne for him that I absolutely LOVE! MMMM. While we were there I found this INCREDIBLE perfume that I've fallen in love with called "Tuesday." I've GOT to get some of it if i ever get some money! After that we went to Books A Million, which i LOVE, and he bought me a new wedding planner, since i didn't really care for the one that I already had.

Wow, our wedding is getting close! lol, not really, but earlier Saturday I went dress shopping with my mom, and 2 of my bridesmaids, and one of their moms. It was incredible, due to the fact that I GOT MY DRESS! Get this, it's a discontinued dress that was $700...but it was marked down to.......$249!!!! No joke! And it's PERFECT! it was the only one I tried on, and I KNEW it was THE dress!!!! Even though the wedding is a year away, you CANNOT pass up a deal like that!

So moving on to Sunday night, Michael and I hung out with our married friendsyu 778 (and my cat just walked across the keyboard) friends Joseph and Nicole. We went to go see Ratatouille and then we grabbed a bite of dinner. I love it when we have group dates :) they are wonderful. Plus they have great wedding advice for us! :)

OK, well now everyone is caught up in the craziness that is my life :)

Whirlwinds and Camp Stores

I got back Friday from being at Centri-kid camp all week. It was great, and I REALLY enjoyed getting to spend time with the younger girls at my church. We went to Carson Springs in Newport, TN, and it was great :).

I must say though, there were a LOT of rabid monkey children at camp...but my girls were absolutely incredible and well behaved. I've never seen a group of girls act that well before!

Now i'm at home, and i'm sick because one of the rabid monkey children made me sick....not ok. but what can I do?

Michael and I are probably going to move up the wedding date to July 4, 2008 instead of 2009. I've gone into mega wedding planning mode...and i'm thinking either i can get my dress for free, or for around $300....that's good. And the church is only $100, so that's nice too :)

ok, off to bed so I can hopefully get better :)

I'm ENGAGED!

Michael and I are officially engaged! Here's the story:

Michael and I went to Olive Garden to meet with my parents so he could ask my dad permission to marry me. There was already a wedding rehearsal dinner going on, and it made all of our food late, and because of this, our meals were free! Michael then asked my dad at the end of the meal if it would be ok if he married me. In return, my dad asked Michael what I thought of that. Michael said he wasn't really sure. Dad then asked Michael "Well, don't you think you ought to ask her?" And then he pointed to the floor. Michael, after a few long seconds of freezing, got down on one knee and proposed to me. The people of the wedding party noticed what was happening, and gathered around and clapped. They also gave us free cake! Since this was totally unexpected, Michael hadn't come with my ring (plus since it's being especially made for me, we don't have it yet), so I'm wearing my mom's ring until I get mine!

There ya go! We don't have a date set yet, but we will soon!!! I'm SO excited!

I love natural things!

Ok, so i'm so not into advertising things, and I HATE that this seems like one of those cheesey things that are spread around myspace, but I have to share something with all of you.

I have found THE most amazing soap ever!

Now let me say something, as far as I know, this isn't organic soap. I don't like organic things, and I think they are a big crock. Disagree with me if you like, but I'm not changing my mind. This soap, however, is ALL NATURAL. No preservatives!!!

I discovered it when I went to the Tennessee Renaissance Festival recently.

It's called "Sapone di Giacomo All natural, all vegetable soap." You can get it here.

This stuff makes my skin feel like velvet, and it smells AMAZING. You can get it in several different scents, and they are $4.00 a bar.

These soaps are all handmade and ALL NATURAL. (AHH! I love that!)

The ingredient list on the wrapper reads:
"Made from saponified olive, palm, soybean, and coconut oils, distilled water, and fragrance oils."

When I was there I got 5 bars, and the one I'm currently using is Lavender Vanilla. YUM.

You can also keep them in your clothing drawers to keep your clothes smelling fantastic.

Since they are all natural, you need to keep them in cool places if they aren't being used, and when you do use them, it's a good idea to keep them on a soap drainer and keep it out of standing water. It's also a wise idea to use it within the first 6 months of purchase, considering there are no preservatives it won't stay fresh forever.

I have sensitive skin on my face, and i can even use it on my face! And it does a great job at removing all of my make up (however, it may not be that great for everyone's faces since they are all different.)

Ok. I had to share that with you. I love this stuff.

Remember, check out the Forest Enchantment Website. They even have more things than all natural soap. It's a great site!!

Let me know if you like it!!!

~Dana

"Really Bad Eggs"

So I saw Pirates 3 tonight. I didn't care much for it. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoyed the first two, but this one not so much. It was REALLY long and drawn out. I love a great plot, and this one kinda fell apart. I enjoy good action scenes, but these were way too long, and I actually found myself being bored with them. Would I see it again given the chance? No.

Also, I have something to vent a little about. If your children are still in diapers, they shouldn't be at a PG-13 movie that ends close to 11pm. Furthermore, if your children cannot read, they should not be in said place. Infants and small children have no business being out that late and going to a movie that is that violent, and "scary." If you feel this is acceptable, good for you. We will have to agree to disagree on this subject. This is just something that grates on my nerves. It's kinda like letting a 12 year old into a club and letting them drink a little. At least it is to me.

Alright, onto happier things!

Bonnie and i totally CRUSHED this guy's ego tonight. He's in this saturn with 2 girls, and we are in this huge Hemi. He wants to be all big and bad at the stop light, looking at us like we were a cheap peice of meat. Bonnie smoked him outta the light...while blasting the speakers. Said guy decided to weave in front of us every time we switched lanes...we faked them out by getting in the turn lane long enough that he turned...and we kept going straight. Ha ha. It was awesome.

That's pretty much is for an update from me. Still in search of a job, but it happens.

"I Say to Myself, 'Self, Why are You Awake Again? It's 1AM'"

UGH! I can't sleep. My head hurts, I can't breathe out of my nose, my stomach needs food but I have a non-existent appetite, and I'm exhausted.

And no thanks to the cat...who is apparently MIA and under the bed...the least she could do is cuddle with me...

A Body's Revenge

Ok, so I did yard work yesterday. Not too bad...but the whole day yesterday was kinda crappy. It all began when I woke up.

So I woke up with this horrid feeling in my nasal cavity, like I had a small watermelon stuck in there. So, like a normal person, I went to blow my nose. Good idea, right? NO. Instead of the normal things that come out of one's nose, I got a kleenex full of blood. Wonderful. Just what I wanted. So after about 5 minutes of trying to get the beeding controlled, I'm able to go about normaler things in my life.

So I took a shower, and then Dad decided it was yard work time. I figured it couldn't be too bad...despite the fact that I had already sneezed somewhere into the double digits by then. (note: mowing while your sinuses already hate you...NOT a smart idea.)

It was cold outside, which I was partially thankful for, so I was wearing longsleeves while I mowed, however i still got grass all over me. Hello shower #2 of the day.

Then we had to go to church. No big. It's cool and totally normal for a Wednesday night. So I get to church, and we are getting ready to eat, and some of the ladies were talking about how they, or others they knew have had this apparent stomach bug that is going around. Now for normal people, that information wouldn't freak anyone out, but for little Miss OCD me, it scared the living daylights outta me (Sad, I know, but my biggest fear is throwing up, and my kryptonite is an unhappy stomach, not to mention my OCD is germ induced).

Well, the rest of church went well, despite all the sneezing that continued. I finally get home, get to bed, and then we come to this morning.

Gee, this morning, that nasal cavity watermelon feeling was back...and so was the blood. Lovely...just beautiful. So today i feel about 3 times worse than yesterday, my nose is runny AND stuffy, and my head feels like I've got an angry rock band in it. I'm ready to feel better.

I don't enjoy being sick, but I'll get over it. I have a tendency to get whiney when I'm sick, if you haven't noticed. Blah.

If anything else interesting happens, I'll let you know.

By the way, sitill haven't heard from the animal shelter :(

Sometimes Life Enjoys Punching You in the Stomach

Sooo....I am no longer employed...yeah. Someone else applied who was older, single, and out of college, and she can work full time year round. So since I was the last one hired, I'm the first one let go...they are letting another girl go too. I had this job for a whopping week....ONE WEEK. Not ok. I've got bills and gas to pay for, and last time I checked, good looks won't buy you either.

I applied at Jersey Mike's (no I don't want to work in food, but hey, money is money.), and I stopped by one of the Veterinary offices, of which didn't need any help. Last move of desperation today...Called the Animal Shelter. I really love the Animal Shelter. That's where I got my incredible Kittie from. I figured it would be too good to be true that they would be hiring. I called anyways...they told me they WERE hiring! It's a cleaning position, but hey, it can't be near as bad as cleaning up cow poo. Seriously. So I rushed over there, filled out my application, and apparently I'm the only one that has applied thus far!!! It's looking pretty good that I'm going to get the job!

Today hasn't been the greatest, but i know, God still loves me, and He knows what's going on.

OH! Dad decided not to do yard work today :)

Rain? Yes please

No work for me at the coffee shop today. I need to run some errands though. After I get back, Dad wants me to help him with the yard. Now don't get me wrong, I love my Dad, but I HATE doing yard work. I'm not really sure why, but I despise it. So I'm hoping for some rain to get me out of it. The yard can wait another day, it won't hurt anything.

In other random news, I'm having a "pretty day" today. I love days like this. You know, after you get up and take a shower and get all dressed and stuff and you just feel like you are the most beautiful person on the planet? I love it!

Well, I should probably head out to town to pay bills and all of that fun stuff.

Maybe someone will comment on here ;) lol

"It's not hard to fall, when you float like a cannonball..."

So I started my first official day of work, and it went pretty darn well! I'm really gonna like it there, however, the second day didn't go quite as well. My main problem is that I'm scared to death of messing up. I gotta get it through my thick head that I'm not going to master the art of coffeeesque making in one day. I'm determined to make tomorrow a FABULOUS day!

Kat's Wedding, on the other hand, went incredibly! We had so much fun. There was one bad thing that happened though. Michael was following me from Murfreesboro to Lebanon so I could drop my car off instead of having to mess with us having 2 cars going to and from the wedding was NO damage to either of our cars. With as hard as he hit me, there should have been something broken. The only thing that was actually hurt was my neck. I had a slight case of whiplash the next day, but all is well.


(Me, Lacy, Kat (the bride), Brenda, Mandy)

So I've been thinking a lot about my blog lately, and I used to have the mind set that it was mine and I wanted it to be kinda private. But after reading some other peoples blogs, i realize it's really ok for other people to read them and share their opinions and thoughts. I really enjoy it.

"It's a long slow slide"

I'm worried about my dad. He passed out today at church. He didn't eat breakfast either, which is really weird. (He's diabetic.) I don't understand what's going on. Please pray for him.

I've been having HORRENDOUS nightmares recently, involving finals. I woke up around 5:30 Saturday morning thinking I was late for school. I did the same thing around 6:30 this morning. Not ok. And I've been dreaming that I'm missing all of my exams, or that I'm going to the wrong ones on the wrong days. I'll be glad when all this mess is over with.

I get to go to work for the first time tomorrow. I'm kinda excited.

I miss Michael too. I haven't seen him since...Wednesday. i won't get to see him until Thursday. This is crazy.

I also need to find someone to do my hair for Kat's wedding. This is turning out to be a difficult task considering that everyone and their mom seems to be graduating from college that day.

OH! and I was talking to my mom, and she told me that for my college grad invitations that I can have pictures made (kinda like high school senior pics, but cooler) to put in my invites!!!! I told her I had to have them Ag related...and i think I'm gonna have them made with COWS! SO freaking cool!

Ok, that's enough. Have a great DAY!

Can't win for losing

*UPDATE!




So, I think I have a job...

I applied today at Java Joe's (a little coffee shop/eatery in town), and got an interview right away. It was pretty exciting, and it pays $7.50/hr. Not too shabby. It's the most i've ever gotten paid per hour in my life.

So I called and told my dad (he was expecting me to apply at TSC, more about that later.) and he wasn't happy when I told him where I had potentially gotten a job. He wanted me to work at TSC cause of my ag major.

Well, after I got off of the phone (and being very downtrodden because i've been harped on so much for needing to get a job) I went to TSC to apply. They weren't friendly at all, and they weren't hiring. But I submitted my app. anyway.

My dad thinks that because I have an almost completed college education, that I should be getting a job in my field...which, let's be honest, isn't all that easy.

So Dad isn't happy when I don't have a job, and he isn't happy with the one i potentially have.

I just can win for losing.

I just want someone to be proud of me that I went in a place, requested an application, and immediatly got an interview, and an almost immediate "yes" that I got the job.

Time to go back to studying.

*I got the job!!!!

The oozing of my brain

Ugh I hate finals. I've been studying all day. I'm tired of studying. I want to sit around witha chai latte, writing in my journal, and reading books. I really think that I've forgotten how to do things that aren't school related.

i've GOT to find a job this summer. That greatly stresses me.

It was stroming and raining last night. it was great! i wish it was doing it again now.

Ok, so that's all right now.

Relief

So I got to talk to my ex today. It was a very nice conversation, and I am so relieved that we are now friends, and there are no longer negative feelings and the such.

This makes me incredibly happy!

Another thing that makes me happy is that I have all of my graduation forms turned in! Yep, the upper-division form, intent to graduate form, and my substitutions forms are all turned in!! Not having all this done has been bothering me since I began at MTSU.

I've got a test tomorrow, and I've been studying for it, but I'm tired of studying. I don't think that it's going to be as hard as I'm thinking it is. I always over stress about tests.

I found out I got a C in my Micro Comp class...I can either keep that grade, or take the final, and try to raise it...of course if I don't raise it, then my grade goes down. The entire test is on Excel, and I'm aweful at Excel...so i may just keep my C.

I'm not sure if I've already said this or not in a previous post, but I've got to find a summer job, and i'm considering working at TSC (Tractor Supply Co.). I'm just glad I'm not taking summer classes.

So I guess that's it for now. This week is my last full week of classes!!!! So exciting! Now I just have to watch out for finals!

Taken Aback

So, like everyone else, I'm going to post about the Virginia Tech devestation.

It's so aweful what happened. I really hurt for all of the families that were affected. I wish I could throw my arms around them and hug them and let them cry on me.

I wish this had never happened. I wish the killer would have gotten help. I hurt for the killer's family as well. I can only imagine the ridicule they are enduring.

Please keep them in your prayers.

Groggy

I've got a lot weighing on my mind lately. I'm scared to death that I'm not going to get decent grades in my classes and I'll have to be here another semester. I found out friday that instead of graduating in May 08, like I had been originally told, I'll be graduating this December! Crazy.

I'm feeling burnt out on church...this bothers me. I've just been through so much recently that I don't want to risk being put through all the crap again. I really wish I felt different about it.

I've gotta find out what I really want to do career-wise...and SOON. I mean, I'm graduating in December...I need a big girl job with a big girl paycheck so I can pay off my loans...ugh. I prefer not to work in retail my whole life, and do SOMETHING that involves my major...It can't be that hard to find something to do with Agriculture Communications....Right?

Just realized I started the first 3 paragraphs with "I." Ack.

Hopefully my tax return will be here soon...I've got to buy some gifts for my friend's wedding...always a good thing for a bridesmaid to do.

It just feels like I don't have anything in my life together. I feel kinda disconnected. I just don't want reality to come and bite me in the butt.

Whats going on with me? Riley Armstrong (or was it Matthew West....I'm not sure) put it well when he sang "It's like you're reaching for the sun, but you're landing in the shade."

This has all got to come together eventually...right?

There's Beauty in the Breaking

Or at least that's what I'm told.

We just got "The Call" from New Middleton telling us whether or not we were voted in....well, we weren't.

This really hurts. I was really looking foward to going to this church, there were such great people, and I was really feeling at peace about going there. So here I go back to my feeling of not liking church.

This is really going to depress my dad. He was looking foward to being at that church, and he was looking foward to have a paying job again too, but I can just look at him and see how dissappointed and sad he is. I hate this.

I don't know where to go from here. I don't know how to feel. Right now I feel a little numb, hurt, upset...

I hate this.

Grouchiness

I'm really kinda frustrated. I've got a lot going on, and I feel really crappy about it.

1. Considering I'm on the Ag. Council, AND an officer, Ikinda really need to be at the Ag. Banquet...Well aparently, the last day to get a ticket was Friday...Yeah, I didn't know that. So i'm going to have to do something to make sure that I can get into the banquet.
2. I'm taking an online class, and the past 2 assignments I didn't get turned in...and I didn't get the one that was due on Friday either...this is not ok....
3. I've got ANOTHER macro test Wednesday....I just had one last week!
4. Got a Food Processing test Monday, and a plant science and agribusniness test coming up as well....Wanting to crawl in a hole about now.

So that's about it. i feel better now.

I laugh in the face of studying!

Ok, so not really. I'm supposed to be finishing my PR study guide, and studying it, but I'm tired, and I think I'll just go to bed instead.

My dad told me something interesting today.

Apparently he had been in the garage looking for some of his hunting things, and when he went back inside the house, he apparently left the door open a bit on accident. Well, Ellie decided to go and investigate. Dad finally noticed he had left the door open...and didn't see the cat. So he got the treats and went all over the house looking for her, and couldn't find her. He went into the garage, and she bolted into the house! The scary part...he had left the outside garage door open...she's declawed in the front, and it's so scary that she could have been gone...completely.

We only got her in October, so we haven't been totally sure whether or not she considered living with us "home" or not. But apparently she does! It makes me so happy that she loves us and accepts us now. You have no clue how much I love this cat, and I don't know what I would have done if she would have left.

And let me tell you, Dad would have been in MAJOR trouble if the cat had dissappeared!

So that's the interestingness of today. Off to bed!

Calm in the Fury

Yay! It's storming right now. i love to listen to the thunder and watch the lightening.

So onto other things.

I was driving home from class today, and everyday on my way home I drive by the Veteran's Hospital. Today, however, it got me to thinking.

All of the Veterans out there have done an incredible thing for all of us. They put their lives on the line to protect us and our freedom. In my opinion, they deserve the best we can give them, and better. Most of them didn't have to do what they did, and therefore we should repay them greatly.

I'm utterly ashamed at how horrid the conditions are becoming in the Veteran's hospitals, and how much we don't provide for them.

I've known of soldiers losing their current employment because they were in the service. This is sooo WRONG!

They deserve hotel-esque suites in the hospitals they have to visit, the utmost psychological care from the TOP psychologists, ALL of their healthcare taken care of for free to them, and retirement on top of everything else.

These men and women do the unimaginable for us...all of us, no matter who we are. They fight for the greatful, the ungreatful, the mean, the nice, the good, the evil...EVERYONE. They sometimes go through the unimaginable medical and psychological ordeals, and all our government does is give them the bare minimum.

This is just something that really bothers me.

My dad is a veteran, I have friends that are currently in the service, and there are so many that have given their lives.

I want to say thank you to all of the soldiers and veterans out there who keep us safe and defend our freedom.

Ya'll rock.

Peace

Wow, things are going amazing right now in my spiritual life.

My dad gets voted on at New Middleton Baptist next Sunday (Easter). This is very exciting. I've set foot in that church twice thus far, and I have fallen completely and utterly in love with this church and the people in it. It's an incredible answer to prayers. I really hope we get called there.

I've been looking over some of my previous posts on here, and I didn't realize how bitter and hurt I had been from the last church. It was pretty bad.

However, this new church is like a breath of fresh air. There is even someone there my age!!!! So exciting :)

I really feel God in that church, and it's been so long since I could say that about a church. I feel so much closer to Him now then I have in over a year.

He's so good to me...much more than I deserve.

Praise God for this new beginning!

Hello again

I suppose I should start using this blog again. i really like it, and it kinda makes me feel a little more grown up than Xanga does.

There are a lot of things on my mind right now that I want to write about, but since it's midnight, and I have classes EARLY in the morning, i should probably go to bed.

I'm really REALLY happy right now for the first time in a long time, concerning church :)