To Hope, or Not to Hope...this is the question

So i've been really stressed lately about finding a job after graduation. Well, I mentioned that as a prayer request in Sunday School this morning, and my Sunday School teacher told me to talk with him after class.

Well it turns out, where he works is looking for people...and he can get me an interview within a week of giving him my resume! No joke! He said he couldn't guarantee me a job, but an interview is a step in the right direction!

I'm not going to mention the job or what it is yet, but if I get it, you'll hear about it!

But lets just say that it starts out at the pay level I wanted.

Please be in prayer over this. This would be a wonderful job for me, and it's everything I've been looking for n a job, even though it isn't ag related.

God is good, and He hasn't let me down yet. And I know that if I don't get this job, then He has an even better one in store for me. But if it was up to me, I'd totally jump all over this one!

Wedding Bells

I'm so ready to be married. July seems so far away, but I know that it will come sooner than I think it will. My main worries is finding a job, and then us finding a house. But it will all come in time...and God hasn't let us down yet.

I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!

"I Just Want You to Know Who I Am."

I give up. I really do. I'm sick and tired of all of this stress, and feeling like no one cares. A little encouragement would go a LONG way right now, but I know better than to ask for it. If you have to ask for it, then it isn't genuine; it's just an inconvenience.

No, this isn't pointed to anyone. So stop reading into it. It's just how I feel right now.

It's times like this I wish I didn't have any friends so I had a legit reason to feel this way.

I just don't know what's going on anymore.

So what if I graduate. I don't have a job to go to. More than likely I'll wind up working retail the rest of my life and earning minimum wage. Go me.

I really don't see any point in graduating right now. All it's doing is making me miserable, and causing me to make everyone around me miserable as well.

Life sucks.

And it all comes crashing down upon my wee little head

So, everything is going kaput in my life right now. I shall share a list of all goings ons, and I want to make the disclaimer that I'm not complaining, I'm just merely hoping that getting these thoughts out will ease some stress...here we go!

• My brother Sam is very sick and not doing well. I'm terrified of losing him. He's the closest person I've ever had to a brother, in every sense of the word. I admire him more than he will ever know.
• Michael's uncle died yesterday. It was completely unexpected, and it breaks my heart to see him and his Granny as upset as they are, as well as the rest of the family.
• I have to get a shot in the arm Friday (I'm terrified of needles, especially when they are being shoved into my skin)
• 21 hours of classes are trying to kill me...I'm not even kidding
• My right eye has been twitching for over 8 hours. This cannot be a good thing
• Nightmares are keeping me from sleeping all the way through the night, and when I do sleep, it's not restful
• I tried on my wedding dress this past weekend, and I've gotta lose some weight so I'll be able to breathe in it. This means a...gulp...diet.
• One of my best friends is having a tough time and hurts so badly, and I have no idea how to help her. I'm really worried about her, and I love her so much.
• I hardly get to see Michael, and with what's going on with his uncle, I feel terrible about not being able to be with him like I should be. But I can only do so many things at once, and can only be in one place at a time. I'm a terrible fiancee.
• I can't remember what my class schedule is day to day, and I frequently forget what day it is.
• 21 hours wasn't the best idea.

And that's all I've got right now. Praying would be a good thing to do for me right now. Overwhelmed is an underrated word for how I'm doing right now.

But on the plus side, I'm getting an MTSU Dairy Products Judging Team National Champions 2007 jacket, and it's paid for! WOOT!