Things at church are still bad.
It's sad that I won't even invite people to church because I know that it will turn them from church.
Seeing how those people act make me ashamed to be a Christian. I don't want to be associated with them. I wouldn't even dare to invite Jesus to my church. Remember that time he got mad at the money changers at the temple? Yeah, I'm afraid He'd start throwing tables.
You should be able to count on your church family in times of need, not have to run and hide from them for fear of ridicule.
i've also been thinking about it, and I've never really had any good church experiences...lets do a rundown of them:
- When my family and I got back into church, i was in 2nd grade. From then until we left, it was bad for me. It had to do with #1 being a child...and we all know how cruel kids can be. and #2 during the middle school time it was bad all around...you know how it is...boys v. girls, and so on.
- After we left there, we went to another church. Things started out well, but quickly progressed to being bad because of one certain person...and well, some people seem to have total power over what everyone else does/thinks in middle school/eighth grade.
- Went to the first curch my dad pastored. Preacher's kid + other kids (which were few) = we dont like you. All the youth were related, and i wasn't. Our youth program was non-existant. I was scrutinized by the entire congregation because of who my dad was. That, and i was in high school, and that time in life is hard enough by itself.
- the church i am now. we've discussed this
- Lived in Murfreesboro over the summer, and went to a church there. The pastor spoke to me ONCE the entire summer, no one asked my name, or even tried to find out about my salvation. My sunday school class were the only ones that would acknowledge me, and they didnt say anything unless they wanted me to pass the donuts. Keep in mind that the size of this church was less than 100. not ok for this to be happening.
All i want is for my family and me to be accepted and loved.
I want a loving church family. I don't want a perfect one, but I want one that has God as their focus. I have yet to find a church near that. Where has the loving spirit within the church gone? I love God. I like God. I love the church. I don't like the church.
I'm having a really hard time right now loving these people. The youth are posting things about my dad on myspace, and i'm not very appreciative. "Down with the preacher man." and "he's going to get voted off the island." or how about "why don't you ever come to church? we need your vote sunday!" Why don't they just get the balls to tell my family this to their face.
I should just stop now. Before I get into things that I shouldn't.
Someone please help me.
I just want it to stop.
You know, I don't know whether I hope my dad keeps his job there, or loses it. I just don't know.
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this upsets me. to me, it sounds as if dan needs to leave. however, that being said it sounds like these people need someone like your dad because they are in need of someone to show them "how to be a christian". i'm not sure this world has seen many true Christians in it's history. Jesus himself said in John that the world would know we were His disciples by our love. looking back throughout church history we have done this very few times. people reading this may not agree with me. but think about the masses of people that would be in heaven now if more people practiced what they say believe instead of being ashamed of it, going behind someones back, deceiving others and themselves as well. i blame people like myself for letting this happen instead of doing something about it i grip and complain about it. hmmmm... sorry this was so long. do i need to come to church with you?
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