Cleverness is Escaping me at the Moment

So I feel the need to update the people who don't read this on what's been going on in my life.

I'm fairly certain that I got said job from previous post! They called me and told me that they were interested in me, and they told me they were going to check my references. Well one of my references emailed me and told me they had been contacted, and sure enough, a few days ago I received an email from my potential future place of employment that contained the release form so they can run my background check! And as long as that goes through well (like it wouldn't) then I get hired! YAY!

In other news, Christmas this year was very different in the Dozier house. We didn't do presents this year. And when I say we didn't do presents, I mean it. Nothing at all. Which was good on the nerves, rather than stressing about shopping and money. But it was bittersweet all the same. This was my last Christmas at home, un-married, and as a Dozier. But I'm sure next year will be fun. It'll certainly be different!

It still hasn't hit me that I'm done with college. I have, however, been experiencing nightmares that involve, but are not limited to:

• Me having to go back to elementary school because I didn't complete something, and they won't let me graduate college til I do. No one will talk to me, or sit next to me at lunch, and the teacher won't let me go to my car.

• I miss exams, and it's in a really dumb class, and it keeps me there another semester, and keeps me from graduating.

• It's move out day in the dorms, and I haven't packed a single thing, I can't find my roommate to help me, people are moving into my room that same day, and they start moving in on top of my unpacked things, and i wind up losing most of my things.

But at least my dreams are interesting.

Other than that, not much has been going on. I've rediscovered my love for reading, and I've been devouring books like it's going out of style. I stayed up til 3am the other day just to finish one of the books! Crazy, I know, lol.

I hope everyone had a marvelous Christmas, and I hope ya'll have a very happy New Year :)

I Finally Did it!

I finally did it. I graduated from college and earned my degree! I now have a B.S. in Agribusiness. I don't feel any smarter, but I do feel like I've accomplished something. I've worked so hard these past 4 1/2 years to get this degree. And I never thought I'd survive my 21 hour semester, but I did.

I have to say, I'm pretty proud of myself. Will I miss college? Yes and no. I'll miss some of my friends and professors, but I most certainly will not miss classes, exams, finals, papers, and projects.

It's funny how much different my life is now, than I ever imagined it would be at this point. I'm very please with where I am and the way things are going. God has been so good to me, and it's totally his fault that I'm where I am. :)

My friends and family have done so much to love me and support me through this hectic academic journey. No, I didn't graduate with honors, but I graduated. That's what counts. So what if I didn't have cords and sashes hanging around my neck. I have my degree, and there isn't anything that can change that. I worked my tail end off, and it shows. God is so good!

I also may ave a job soon. I went for an interview on Thursday, and it went pretty well. I just hope that I get this job. It would be a huge blessing, and it's something that I really need right now. But I know that if I don't get it, God has something bigger and better for me in store. Just please be in prayer about this. I know it's down between myself and someone with a masters. But I'm thinking that the person with a masters is looking for a temporary job until something better comes along, and I'm looking for a permanent job. So we'll see how it pans out.

Now the only major thing I need to do is get a move on this wedding planning. It shouldn't be that bad, and I'm pretty sure that it won't be near as stressful as 21 hours of classes were, lol.

Thank you to everyone who has helped me make it this far. I love ya'll and I'm so thankful for you :)

Rain? What's that?

Oh my goodness we need rain! It has been obscenely dry here all summer long...and I'm really worried about the farmers and what they are going to feed their livestock this winter. I know that many of them have already been feeding hay most of the summer, and since we haven't had rain, the grass hasn't grown for more hay to be bailed. It's a really sad thing. Food prices are going to be outrageous this winter...especially corn.

I have officially brought my wedding dress home! I'm sooo excited! This is becoming more and more real everyday!

I have bad news in the school sector. I'm now having to take 21 hours this semester to graduate, thanks to my minor (mis)advisor. Not cool. But I am bound and determined to graduate this December!!!

School is starting in a few days, and i'm so stressed. I know it will be ok, it's just going to be difficult.

So much is going on, and everyone is so stressed. I'm ready for people who are insanely happy. I never thought i'd say that...

"It's a long slow slide"

I'm worried about my dad. He passed out today at church. He didn't eat breakfast either, which is really weird. (He's diabetic.) I don't understand what's going on. Please pray for him.

I've been having HORRENDOUS nightmares recently, involving finals. I woke up around 5:30 Saturday morning thinking I was late for school. I did the same thing around 6:30 this morning. Not ok. And I've been dreaming that I'm missing all of my exams, or that I'm going to the wrong ones on the wrong days. I'll be glad when all this mess is over with.

I get to go to work for the first time tomorrow. I'm kinda excited.

I miss Michael too. I haven't seen him since...Wednesday. i won't get to see him until Thursday. This is crazy.

I also need to find someone to do my hair for Kat's wedding. This is turning out to be a difficult task considering that everyone and their mom seems to be graduating from college that day.

OH! and I was talking to my mom, and she told me that for my college grad invitations that I can have pictures made (kinda like high school senior pics, but cooler) to put in my invites!!!! I told her I had to have them Ag related...and i think I'm gonna have them made with COWS! SO freaking cool!

Ok, that's enough. Have a great DAY!

Groggy

I've got a lot weighing on my mind lately. I'm scared to death that I'm not going to get decent grades in my classes and I'll have to be here another semester. I found out friday that instead of graduating in May 08, like I had been originally told, I'll be graduating this December! Crazy.

I'm feeling burnt out on church...this bothers me. I've just been through so much recently that I don't want to risk being put through all the crap again. I really wish I felt different about it.

I've gotta find out what I really want to do career-wise...and SOON. I mean, I'm graduating in December...I need a big girl job with a big girl paycheck so I can pay off my loans...ugh. I prefer not to work in retail my whole life, and do SOMETHING that involves my major...It can't be that hard to find something to do with Agriculture Communications....Right?

Just realized I started the first 3 paragraphs with "I." Ack.

Hopefully my tax return will be here soon...I've got to buy some gifts for my friend's wedding...always a good thing for a bridesmaid to do.

It just feels like I don't have anything in my life together. I feel kinda disconnected. I just don't want reality to come and bite me in the butt.

Whats going on with me? Riley Armstrong (or was it Matthew West....I'm not sure) put it well when he sang "It's like you're reaching for the sun, but you're landing in the shade."

This has all got to come together eventually...right?